pensées et sentiments

pain is the word to describe my life right now.... constant pain....
when I msged that UG and psst this morning, they seem to be sympathetic about it. Don't know if it is from the heart. haha... Not that I am sarcastic but I just can't believe in the management party any longer. Yes, somehow my health is getting a lot worse right now with the backache having a come back. I really need a good long rest to recuperate without having to worry about work. I know that this is a problem as the work will be just piling up with Jo flying off and kan chiong spider doing all he can to clear work. UG asked me to take MC when I told him in sms at 6 am that I'm taking leave to rest at home. Psst told me to take care of myself coz I need to get married one day and have babies. Yeap, all these I know but I can't control what is going on in my health. The air around spl is bad and the environment isn't really helping much. When no one is around to carry goods, you still have to carry. So don't have to act like you care when you are just fake. Sorry for being rude but it's the fact in the office. Yes, you are "concern" but you will still say things behind my back, so what's the point of being concern on the surface but deep down within you are just plan unsympathetic about my situation. I don't need fake people around me.

Argghhh...I just can't seem to fall asleep.... pain is acting up pretty bad. I need a good recuperating period....a good rest.... a good start.... a long long sleep and vacation......just plain lazy to get out of bed. Tried sitting on the floor to blog and keeping my back straight inorder to ease the pain....