A true friendship that lasts throughout the years is rare indeed, and to be treasured as a priceless gift.
Tears
Author: 属于我的空间
I didn't expect myself to just break down into tears today but I am really so tired about everything that tears just can't stop flowing down my face. I didn't want to but because lately lots have been building up on the inside that I just can't help being the way I am right now. It really hurts when someone close to you really said somethings in sarcastic manner to you when you don't even know what is going on. I really treasure you as a close friend and I don't want anything to change that. I want the friendship to work out it's best no matter what circumstances or even what others say. Or even when others say that we shouldn't be so close to one another and that we all should draw a clear line. I want to prove to others that we are not just good working colleagues but also close friends who know each other inside out. I know that gal you are facing a lot of pressure lately from boss but I don't want you to change the person that you are. You are great as a person and I enjoy working with you and learning from you, but don't let pressure change you into another person. I'm speaking from my heart. I am alright if you are angry with me for me making mistakes but at least let me know what went wrong and I will learn from there. I know that you are just protecting me like a friend should when you are arrowed by others and I am very glad for that. I'm not an expressive person and at times I really don't know how to express myself. When someone commented that I was literally fooling around at work, I took it into considerations. Now when I fully concentrate at my work, trying my best to do it, someone else just comments that I'm too fierce or bad tempered/unapproacable. I don't know but everything seems to be priority when it comes to work for me. I've to juggle between administrative tasks such as inventory, sap billings, keeping track of orders, filing and other miscellaneous things that are passed over to me to do. I am trying my best and doing my best to do whatever that I can, but someone can just say that I'm just not producing any results. I've only have 1 pair of hands and if I can I will use my feet too to work. Maybe I'm just not cut out for administrative job...sometimes I just think of it. No matter how much I'm doing, people just don't appreciate. I really appreciate people who are helping me with my workload but it's not that I owe them anything. I really try my best to do whatever that is passed to me. It's all about fast pace huh...but how fast can you get when you only have 1 pair of hands which is already full with work and without any breathing space. Lately I've not been talking in the office and just concentrating on work and nothing else...but it seems that I'm just seen as making mistakes in my work and not doing a good job at all. Mistakes are always remembered but for the right things that you do, it will always not be commemorate. I make mistakes but it's part and parcel of learning and learning until you don't make that mistake anymore. I rather people tell me my mistakes than just keep it to themselves, until a point of time when they can't take it no further. It's like I get flared up not knowing what things I've done wrong in the first place and I feel that it's unfair for me. At least when I get scolded or flared at, I want to know the reasons, so that I know that the person is against the reason behind it and not against me as a person. I don't want work to affect any relationships or even anyone. I think from now on, I will outperform myself, push myself a lot harder but I will not change myself to fit into the bill of others. I will smile whenever anyone comes to me.... so that I will not be labelled as bad tempered/unapproacable.... I'm just keeping an open mind and heart at work right now. It's ok if I get scolded.... I will be strong and just move on.... I will build this friendship stronger no matter what happens... It's been a long week and let's have a good rest and forget whatever that's happened. :) I promise that I will perform better at work, be more focus and also be friendlier to kan chiong spider... :P But just ask him not to be so *touchy*, lest I be irritated.
You are my close friend and forever you will be, nothing will ever change that....
*smiles* come what may.... :)
Smiles... forget abt the unhappy stuffs... and everything will be fine .. trust me :)