pensées et sentiments

Why and why isn't the backache going away... I wanna cry already...it's so painful... i can't sit properly, stand properly or even lie on the bed properly.... I am scared that I will be paralyzed..... :( I'm so tired that I want to just rest at home until it recovers then look for a job but dad hasn't gotten a job since...therefore I can't just leave a job like that... I need money.... Pain pain pain... and my job sucks too...