pensées et sentiments

I don' ; t savent si cette amitié restera la même chose ou pas après ce qui s'est produit, mais je veux établir cette amitié le meilleur qu'il sera. Pour rester de près d'un un autre n'importe ce que s'est produit. Nous serons des amis pour toujours. Vous serez toujours mes chéris pour toujours ! I don' ; le soin de t ce que d'autres peuvent indiquer ou faire pour nous détacher mais moi croire toujours en vous ! !

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Le jour je vous ai rencontré
J'ai trouvé un ami
et une amitié que je prie ne finira jamais

Votre à sourire bonbon ainsi
et si lumineux
maintenu m'allant quand le jour était foncé comme nuit

vous ne m'avez jamais jugé, vous m'avez compris
Alors vous me l'avez dit needn' ; t soit de cette façon
et m'a donné l'espoir d'un meilleur demain

Vous étiez toujours là pour moi,
j'avez su que je pourrais compter sur vous.
Vous m'avez donné le conseil et l'encouragement
toutes les fois qu'I didn' ; t savent quoi faire.

Vous m'avez aidé à apprendre à s'aimer
Vous avez fait la vie sembler si bonne.
Vous avez dit je peux faire quelque chose que j'ai mis mon esprit à
et soudainement j'ai su que je pourrais.

Il y avait des périodes où nous didn' ; t voient que l'oeil à observer
et là étaient des jours où tous les deux nous ont pleuré.
Mais néanmoins nous l'avons fait à travers :
Notre amitié hasn' ; t pourtant mort.

Les circonstances nous ont séparés,
Nous sommes séparés par beaucoup de milles.
Vraiment, la seule chose qui me maintient
est ma mémoire prisée de votre sourire.

Cette amitié que nous partageons Est si précieux à moi,
J'espère qu'elle se développe et s'épanouit et dure à l'infini.

Vous êtes si supplémentaire-spécial à moi
Et ainsi ceci à vous que je vraiment dois dire :
Vous êtes mon un ami vrai,
Mon ange de gardien.

Notre amitié est un-dans-un-million Ainsi let' ;
prise de s dessus entre eux elle et.
Nous ne pouvons pas laisser cette possibilité de mouche pure de bonheur loin
pour là ne serons jamais des autres.

Je t'aime.
Je vous aimerai toujours.

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sian sian sian... maybe need to OT today....

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Why and why isn't the backache going away... I wanna cry already...it's so painful... i can't sit properly, stand properly or even lie on the bed properly.... I am scared that I will be paralyzed..... :( I'm so tired that I want to just rest at home until it recovers then look for a job but dad hasn't gotten a job since...therefore I can't just leave a job like that... I need money.... Pain pain pain... and my job sucks too...

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My cell group member's husband has been expecting a call from me for the past 2 days but due to the pain, and the drowsiness of the medication, I didn't really call him. He is working in a hotel and might have positions available for me. I was notified that there is a walk in interview the past 2 evenings and that there are so many positions available. Should I go or should I not go? This is a dilemma. Maybe I should give it a try, take a taxi there and try going for an interview..... He has asked me to try out a secretarial position, but I am afraid as I do not have a secretarial experience... would they want to employ me???? And give me a chance at the job???? Don't know arh....

See first lah...don't know... I am not prepared....

Dilemma dilemma dilemma~~~~~ :(

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I am on MC again...for the last time I guess coz of the pain on the back. Was issued by chinese physician and had advise me not to do anything strenuous like carrying goods or anything else. The vein needs time to heal and the numbness will eventually subside. I have problems controlling the movement of one of my limbs. This is probably one of the worst experience so far. I'm resting at home, healing comes first now for me. But the problem is, I can't seem to fall asleep, especially when the pain is the worst in the morning. That's y i'm blogging. I will try to knock myself later to sleep. Take time to rest and recover. I really hope this pain will not come back as and when it likes. It seems like a time bomb....but seems like it came back lots of times when I came back to work in shimano. Haha...maybe I'm not suitable for this environment. Parents have been asking me to leave, but of course need to look for a job first. It's not the first time that people have been asking me to leave already. It's not that I don't want to leave but I need time to look for a suitable job and environment first before the letter can be thrown. I will actively search for a job soon...and send out as many resumes as possible. I hope to work in the customer service environment, hopefully in the front line service. I don't mind meeting lots of people from all walks of life. I think it will be interesting.

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Didn't know that travelling to the doctor can be so tiring. My chinese sinseh is at serangoon central and I need to take a bus there and there's quite a distance to walk too. So tiring when I reached the place, having to take extra effort to walk there despite the pain. Walking used to be effortless but this time, due to the pain and the injury, walking there is tiring. Sinseh says that it will take some time to heal the vein and he prescribed me some medication. I wished that I had taken a cab but inorder to save $$, I didn't.

Now, I'm just resting on my bed...trying very hard to sleep... but i really can't....

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pain is the word to describe my life right now.... constant pain....
when I msged that UG and psst this morning, they seem to be sympathetic about it. Don't know if it is from the heart. haha... Not that I am sarcastic but I just can't believe in the management party any longer. Yes, somehow my health is getting a lot worse right now with the backache having a come back. I really need a good long rest to recuperate without having to worry about work. I know that this is a problem as the work will be just piling up with Jo flying off and kan chiong spider doing all he can to clear work. UG asked me to take MC when I told him in sms at 6 am that I'm taking leave to rest at home. Psst told me to take care of myself coz I need to get married one day and have babies. Yeap, all these I know but I can't control what is going on in my health. The air around spl is bad and the environment isn't really helping much. When no one is around to carry goods, you still have to carry. So don't have to act like you care when you are just fake. Sorry for being rude but it's the fact in the office. Yes, you are "concern" but you will still say things behind my back, so what's the point of being concern on the surface but deep down within you are just plan unsympathetic about my situation. I don't need fake people around me.

Argghhh...I just can't seem to fall asleep.... pain is acting up pretty bad. I need a good recuperating period....a good rest.... a good start.... a long long sleep and vacation......just plain lazy to get out of bed. Tried sitting on the floor to blog and keeping my back straight inorder to ease the pain....

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Rotting and not doing anything.... so shiok... nua and nua at home

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I'm tired of work....
I'm tired of not getting enough rest....
I'm tired of my emotions....

I really hope to take a short break, quit a job and then re-think about what I need to do with my career path....

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For the past few days, I've been having terrible backache. It seems like it's so difficult to get out of bed as the pain is excruciating... I've felt a numb on my left leg and the left side of the hips area. I've never experienced such pain before, don't know when I sprained my back again. Feeling vexed as I can't concentrate on my work well. I am also afraid that one day when I wake up, I would be paralyzed on the left side of the body. Don't know when that will happen... haha..maybe one day I will just happen to call SPL and say that I resign on the spot coz I am sick and can't walk anymore.

Missed the bus today and had to take public transport to work. So many things to do and yet I can't seem to concentrate because of the pain...

Feel like just taking the half day off but it just fits no purpose... my cough isn't going away too... why is my health getting worse?

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I m having a bad dry cough, head's spinning like no one's business, can't really concentrate on my work. Really very giddy liao~

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Once a upon a time, there were 2 old freaks, both guarding their own treasury. Their daily routine happen to be playing "tai chi" and also "majong". Often filled with anguish one one of them loses a game for the day.

Let me give you an analysis of the character of these 2 freaks.

Freak one of the eastern mountain
The eastern mountain is one that is filled with beautiful scenery, one that is surrounded by clear waters where fishes swim happily in it. This freak looks calm on the outside like the surroundings of his inhabitance, not often letting his emotions show to people, lest anyone knows about his weaknesses. Though he looks calm on the outside, there are a lot of emotional turmoil that boils up on the inside, that sometimes he would go to the end of the cave and vent his anger there. He is a loner and often fishes by the lake and while waiting for the fishes to come to catch, he would plan strategies to counter attack his long time foe, the western moutain freak. Each day, he would smile at his plans secretly, each one according to his evilness. The mind of this freak is constantly filled with evil plans but he never seem to dare to work according to his plans because of his timidness. He earns a good living as a fisherman, occassionally catching huge amount of fishes, in which he supplies to the fish mongers in the city. Though he is timid, he bullies the young or those that he thinks that he is able to pick upon.

to be continued....

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What is happening to me lately? Sometimes I just feel that my world is crashing down on me, forgive me gals if I'm a little impatient, a little moody, and a lot tempermental lately. I think I'm sick on the inside, not sure why depression is drowning me lately. I need a break, a good good rest and it's time to move on to another level of life. I don't know what is happening to me, maybe I just don't want to face reality.... or is it that my emotions are eating me away. I need time to find that happy me back. I want to be happy... but it's so difficult sometimes....

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I am seriously in a bad mood. I already done my best at work and yet people still wanna complain that I didn't do any good job. I am really pressurized up and down, left and right, machiam I can do so many things at one time. One at a time loh, I am not a superwoman ler. I cannot do so many things at one go. I am only one person and I can only do so much. So let me do things at my own pace and I will do it well, don't come and pressurize me lah. Hai!! Is this job really for me a not? I really wonder ler. I don't know if I am doing a good job here. No one believes that I am already doing my best here. Maybe it's because their expectation too high already and I am never going to meet up to it. To the hell with everything here sia... go away and stop making me so depressed and angry at work everyday. I want clearer instructions and clearer things being passed down. Next time I will ask and ask until instructions are clearer then I won't do double job lah. Next time I better ask properly, record that speech down, lest anyone go back on their word and say that they didn't say anything. It's the same with boss, etc. etc. Say one thing, do another. Win liao loh!!! Who is the winner, you loh!!! :) No one can compare ar... Sian Sian sian...super sian...I just hope to walk away from everything and just leave it there!!!! Angry arh!!! ANGRY with everything and everyone... Mood sucks mood sucks... really everything sucks!!!! I don't feel motivated or encouraged at all when I feel that I've done a good job... just not appreciative.... @$&@#*$&@#

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Shut up is the word that I like to use these days. These people in the office don't know how to keep comments to themselves. Don't know why they like to blabber out...are they thinking with their butts or that their brains are in the ends of the anus? Really angry ler! That tai tai ar.. yes i didn't bill in time so that vp can claim her money. But think about the past 2 weeks, I've been bz with jo's shipment while jo is away on biz trip and end of the month I've been bz with closing and also with other shipments. Really cannot cope with the workload already and yet people just don't understand that I've really tight in schedule and I am trying my very best to complete everything that is on hand. It's not that I'm sitting on it, just that too many urgent things that needs to be done at the same time. I only have a pair of hands and a brain, and I am already doing so many things at the same time. So just shut up and keep the comments to yourself for goodness sakes. Dun say things like "wah, give you end of the month, it's 2 weeks liao leh." Just shut your blardee gap lah. No one ask you to say anything, so just shut up!!!
SHUT YOUR BLARDEE GAP!!!! To think of it, should i leave this job?? This job sucks, pay sucks, everything sucks, I have no motivation to work already. Whenever i have motivation to work, these ppl just say some stupid blardee comments and pissed me off to the moon. I'm really in pissed off mood now that I need to blog and release all these shit. My mood sucks nowadays coz too many things to do and people just are not appreciative. Always think that I'm so free and playing around when infact I am not loh!!!! 2$&@#*$&@#*$&@#*$&@#*&$@#*&$@#*&$@*#&$*@#&$*@&#$*&@#*$&@#*$&#@$&@#$

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I'm home after 5 days of travelling. Done lots of shopping, eating and sightseeing, nevertheless, good things must come to an end. Though I enjoyed the wonderful times with my galfriends over at bangkok but time passes with a blink of an eye. And lo and behold, I'm back in SPL working again. I'm happy to be back after a relaxing shopping therapy trip but how I wish everything would be longer. I will plan to go with mama again this coming december for shopping, eating and relaxing again. Promised mama that I would bring her around to those wonderful places that we all went.

Next: Bangkok Trip....
Next 2: My Thai Oil Massage Experience
Next 3: The Puss In Boots Chapter 2

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Once there was a cat who had no boots and when she saw that an old queen had a pair of boots, she was so delighted. She was so delighted that daily she would pester the old queen to give her the pair of boots. The old queen was reluctant at first as these boots were given to her by someone so precious. But when the cat begin to lick the boots, she found it disgusting and she finally gave in. As the years went by, the old queen got used to the puss in boots. Now if she doesn't see the cat licking boots daily, she would feel a sense of uneasiness. Bootlicking has become a habit for the puss in some ways....

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